September is National Literacy Month!

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It’s National Literacy Month and as a publishing house…we have a lot of books!

First – a book releasing November 1, 2022.

The Year of the Bear by Douglas J. Lanzo is a coming-of-age story for the middle-grade readers in your life.

Thirteen-year-old Jason is on the cusp of manhood, striving to find his place at school and at home-especially after his mother has abandoned them and his father is left to deal with his own anger. When Jason and his father encounter a bear while out hunting, they shoot and kill it, not realizing that they have left a cub without its mother. When Sasquot of the Penobscot Tribe, a part of the Bear Family, discovers what they have done, he decides that Jason needs a lesson in caring for God’s creatures. Thus begins a year that Jason will never forget as he begins to care and train the cub in order for it to survive. As Jason forms a bond with the bear, he, in turn, learns valuable lessons for life.

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Next, a gorgeously illustrated book for pre-readers about just how much God loves them!

Guess How Much God Loves You is the story of seven-year-old Lucy Lu, a colorful, creatively curious first-grader, who is starting to have serious questions about God.

  • How old is He?
  • Does He sleep?
  • What does He do all day?
  • And the biggest one of all—does God love me?

After one particularly hard day of being bullied by her classmates at school, Lucy feels like she doesn’t matter. She sits with Papa Joe, who has promised to answer her questions about God, launching them onto a journey to discover God’s never-changing, never-failing, never-ending love. What follows is a wild adventure through the Bible, where Lucy and her papa find themselves in the middle of each page of the exciting story of God’s love and faithfulness for all people throughout all of history.

We ADORE this beautifully illustrated book and highly recommend it for young children!

How far would you go to protect the ones you love?

The Withering begins after the apocalyptic “Days To Come” have come and gone, four orphans who have nothing left but each other set out across the desert in search of a sorcerer, in hopes of finding a way off of their dying world. What they find sparks disagreement about what to believe and who to trust. The unsettling answers they uncover will force each of them to face ghosts from their past as they come to grips with their own purpose, faith, and identity. We recommend this book for sci-fi lovers, as well as tweens and teens looking for an engaging story in another world – without the garbage!

Searching for books for homeschooling, additional education, or just books that make any reader LOVE reading again? We have books for every age and stage!

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Author Forum: How Do You Manage Your Writing Schedule?

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This is the third of a multi-part series by guest blogger Ivy Cheng tapping into the expertise of several seasoned Ambassador authors. The first post offered tips on dealing with writer’s block. The second post covered the influence other writers can have on your work.

As a college student, I know all too well the struggles of time management. Juggling an internship, part-time job, classes, and still trying to find time to see friends seems like an impossible task. I cannot even imagine trying to find the time to write a full length book, when I am struggling to write all  my class papers! Our authors must have schedules that are just as intense, if not even more! Not all of our authors are full time writers. Many of them hold other occupations, such as teachers and parents. Therefore, we ask some of our authors their methods of fitting in writing in their busy lives.

Juana M9781620202913-e1414700233650ikels – Author of Choosing Him All Over Again 

I wrote over half of my book, possibly more, while our household was asleep. I would begin at 10:00 pm and end somewhere around 2:00 am. The time passed as if it were just minutes. I had to make myself go to bed so I could still do my responsibilities with my family of six.  Once the book was written (took about a year and a half), I edited it primarily in the daytime a couple hours at the time. To do that, I had to turn off email and my phone to “carve out the time.” I had to say no to speaking opportunities (I didn’t get that many, but I couldn’t lead a Bible study or even a small group as a facilitator!) I had to keep carving out the time to edit, which took months. I like to think that I pulled it off without my family even noticing what I was doing by doing it at night and editing it in chunks of one hour here and two hours there—but I hate to tell you that they were rather tired of hearing about my “finishing the book” in the end!

 

From Driftwood to SapphireKathy Howard – Author of From Dishes to Snow and From Driftwood to Sapphire

Writing is not full-time for me, not yet anyway. If the Lord is willing, I would love to make it my full-time job eventually.  For now, though, I fill my days homeschooling my children and writing in between. From Dishes to Snow was written mainly at night, after the kids went to bed. However, its sequel, From Driftwood to Sapphire was written like a full time job, during the days, barricaded in my room for over a month as my family patiently endured a messy house. That was probably easier to do as a writer, but harder to do as a mother. Now that we are on summer break, I hope to find a happy medium as I put the finishing touches on a third novel.

 

Grace in the MiddleWendy Duke – Author of Grace in the Middle

I work in spurts. During the summer, I am mostly home with my kids, so writing time is scarce, but I want them to see me working hard, so I try to get up earlier than they do and write in the mornings. When they’re in school, my job working in sports ministry is flexible, so I usually take a day a week and spend all day writing / editing.

 

 

An9781620202692-197x306drea Rodgers –Author of The 20th Christmas

I’m a stay at home mom to two children, which means I never had a break until my son started school! My daughter is in pre-school two days a week so, during the school year, those are the days I write. Thankfully, my husband is also supportive, so when I’ve been on deadline he will take the children away from the house in the evenings to do fun activities with them while I write.

 

 

How do you manage your busy schedule? Go and comment on our Facebook page and tell us all about it!

 

Choosing LIFE: Cathy Harris

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Learn more about your favorite Ambassador authors with our “Five Things” series. Author Cathy Harris wrote the amazing living testimony  “Created to Live.” Here are Cathy’s “five things”:

I love watching childbirth. Ever since I had my first daughter naturally 7 years ago, I have been in awe of the childbirth process. I love learning about natural childbirth as well as teaching it. I have been a childbirth educator for the past 6 ½ years. As much as I love teaching, nothing compares to attending and being part of a birth. I love watching mothers become strong empowered women. I love watching fathers comfort and coach their wives in gentleness and confidence. I love watching babies be born wide opened and ready to take in the world. About a year ago, I had a chance to catch a baby for a couple having a homebirth. Due to a very fast birth, 9781620205716the midwife was not able to make it to their home in time for the birth. I was forced and delighted to jump in as the acting midwife to catch their squishy and cute baby boy. A process that might be scary or even gross to many people, is fascinating to me. When my kids get older and leave the house, I might just attend births just for fun.

 

I homeschool my kids. Homeschooling started out as something I was terrified to do. Now it is a delight and privilege. Of course, it is also a huge challenge. There are days I think about putting my kids on the school bus, but our incredible homeschool community helps me work through the hard days. We are a part of a community called Classical Conversations. We actually “go to school” every Friday together. Each of my kids have their own class and teacher. I have been blessed (or perhaps I am the only crazy one in the bunch) to teach the 4 and 5 years olds. Much of my time on Fridays is helping these young ones memorize and absorb new information in the following subjects: history, math, geography, Latin, English, science, and fine arts. Bottom line is, I pretty much make a fool out of myself in front of a few moms and 8 kids every week. We dance, sing, march, and even roll out our new memory work. It is a ton of fun. Unless God changes our course, we plan to homeschool our kids through high school.

 

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I love the arts. Singing, painting, and playing the piano were my past times. Before the days of snotty noses, diapers, homeschooling, and soccer fields, I spent most of my free time painting, playing the piano, or singing. I sang for several years on the church worship team and was a member of a few of the worship teams in the Atlanta International House of Prayer. I don’t get a chance to dabble in the arts all that much anymore. I guess you could say that home décor, chalk painting furniture, and writing have replaced the hobbies of the past. And, if I can sneak a ticket to a play or pop in a musical in the DVD player, I am a happy girl.

 

I am an introvert. Some people may find it strange for an author, speaker, and teacher to be an introvert. I love being around a lot of people, but I refuel in my alone time or with people who know me well. I would also much rather sit down with you and have deep conversation over coffee than mingle in a large crowd. I am not the life of the party at all. I actually tend to be very reflective, practical, and quiet. I am an ISTJ according to the Myers Briggs Personality Test. Funny enough this is the opposite from my husband in every way. I am an introverted (I) sensor (S) who logically thinks through everything (T) and loves discovering what is just (J) in every situation. Being spontaneous is a challenge. I make a list for everything that requires planning, and I have 4 white boards in our house that help me organize life. Some would say that I am boring, but I would say I am practical.

 

I love Missions. I love everything about missions. I love reading about it, supporting missionaries, and hearing about what God is doing all of the earth. I served as a missionary for 6 years before I got married through the United Methodist Missionary Society. Although I was not an overseas missionary, I was appointed as an associate director at the United Methodist Student Center (The Wesley Foundation) at the University of Georgia. I was also blessed with the opportunity to go on or lead college mission teams to Los Angeles, New York, Omaha, Guatemala, Scotland, and Israel. My husband and I also served as the Adventures in Missions Field Coordinators for a summer in Philadelphia. We hope as our kids get a bit older, we will be able to continue taking mission trips.

 

 

 

Merry Christmas in July!

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It’s Christmas in July and it’s our biggest event of the year!

Our annual Facebook event is the perfect way for you to browse our new releases and get to know our authors. You can ask questions, dig in deeper, and add a stack of books to your to-be-read list. We know, we know – that list never stops growing. But we have so many titles and don’t want anyone to miss out!

From exhilarating sci-fi to historical fiction set in the French Revolution, to books on end-time theology, and one person’s struggle with a terminal diagnosis, our books will leave you inspired and draw you closer to Christ.

 

But first – you have to join the group! Click here for this exclusive opportunity to browse new releases and chat with our award-winning authors!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

At Ambassador International, our mission is to provide the Church with Christian books written by Christian authors – published by a Christian publisher. It is no small feat to go against secular media and houses, but we are not called to do easy things. Every time you purchase a book, leave a review or recommend one of our books, you are helping to continue our mission.

 

We hope to see you soon!

 

 

 

Roe v. Wade Overturned + Our Pro-Life Mission

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In case you missed it, Roe v. Wade has been overturned!

But as Christians, we know that our pro-life rhetoric can never waiver and the laws of the land do not change our mission to live out our faith.

We are honored to present a Christian perspective on this decision from several of our books.

But HOW can we become the answer in an abortion-free community?

Created to Live is the story of Cathy Harris, a seventeen-year-old who had an abortion out of fear, and who now teaches Christians just how to live out their pro-life ethic in their communities.

With the overturn of Roe, this story is even more crucial for Christians today. But we caution you. Don’t read this book if you do not want to be challenged, become uncomfortable, and grow.

Truth is stranger than fiction, but if we could learn about our post-Roe world from fiction?

Memories of Lasting Shadows  was written before the fall of Roe v. Wade, but discusses a world far post-Roe. The author paints a picture where medical advancements are applied to save the lives of mother and child and the discussions of today are no more. For those interested in a bit o’ fiction on an exceedingly relevant topic, this is the book for you!

But what about those among us who need encouragement when faced with a difficult pregnancy diagnosis?

Grace In the Middle tells the story of parents faced with a painful diagnosis, the doctors who advised them to terminate, and the faith that guided their decisions.

Finally, we see the need for YA fiction that talks about the realities of teenaged pregnancies. Someone Like You is the tale every teenaged reader and parent needs.

These books are more than a pro-life book list. They are reminders to all of us of how we can live out our faith and beliefs, especially in a post-Roe world. We are grateful for the privilege of publising books to the honor and glory of God. We hope each one of our readers will use these resources to bring glory to our Savior.

Grad Gifts for The Class of 2022

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Congratulations to the class of 2022!

 

Student Loans, Mental Health, and Relationships.

At Ambassador International, we know that GREAT books form GREAT adults, and we would like to welcome the class of 2022 into the club!

Life’s About Relationships and we would know – one of our authors wrote the book about it! Pastor Don Woodard’s book takes the basic struggle of every human and puts into perspective, helping new grads solve relationship problems from the get-go. A must-read for every graduate – high school on up!

The need for money (and student loans) means  The Love of Money is the perfect gift for the new grad looking to balance student loans, saving for a mortgage, and investing! Give the new grads in your life the gift of financial responsibility.

Imagine Not As Much gives new grads a healthy perspective on nutrition and bodies – ever so necessary for adult life!

 

What to Do After Graduation?

 

There’s nothing like Obstacles to knock over a new grad, but what if there’s a success story in there? Readers of all ages will find themselves entertained and encouraged by this story of athletic feats that is NOT about football.

For the Display of His Splendor meets this generation where they are in anxieties and mental health struggles, reminding everyone to look upward to the One who formed them. This book is an absolute for new grads in 2022.

The Divine Deal: Life Lessons on Preparing for Adulthood answers the questions every new grad has and shows them just where so many of the answers to adulting lie. The Divine Deal is the adulting manual every 2022 grad should read!

 

Biblical Grace Today!

 

The Other 3:16s takes the Bible’s most famous passage and reminds its readers of the other 3:16s. Perfect for the new grad with new study times on his/her hands and a hunger to learn more.

There’s not a blueprint for life after graduation, but there is The Bible Blueprint. Join Rose Spiller and Chris Paxson as they study the Bible like the blueprint it is – readers will want to leave their thinking caps on for this book.

And finally – The Life She Once Knew is the incredible, true-life story of a high school graduate who survived a brutal attack, but was changed forever. Graduates of all ages will be inspired and shaped by Queena’s story and the faith her family displays.

 

To Our 2022 Graduates:

We are so proud of you. We pray and hope that you shape the world with your dedication, knowledge, and absolute love for Jesus Christ our Savior. Takes these books and walk in faith.

~Ambassador International

Job, Daniel, and David: Men Who Came Before Us

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With Memorial Day just around the corner, many of us are preparing for our summer vacations, time off from work, and time with our families.

As we do so, we take time to remember those who have gone before and have paid the ultimate price for our country. We celebrate their lives and their sacrifice. But how often do we do the same for those who have gone before us spiritually? How often do we take time to remember the stories or lives of those in the Bible who lived a life of faith, courage, or repentance? I believe these men and women are just as important to us from a spiritual standpoint. Some of these men include Job, the man who lost everything, Daniel, the man who risked everything, and David, the man after God’s own heart. These men represent three pillars: faith, courage, and repentance.

 

Job examines how deep our faith is when everything is stripped from us. Dr. Jim Halla in his new release, The Book of Job: God’s Faithfulness in Troubled Times seeks to show readers that even in our darkest hour, God is still sovereign over all.

This message is for all believers in all seasons of life, no matter their spiritual maturity.Dr. Halla begins by telling readers, “the book’s major focus is on the very essence of God and the believer’s relationship to Him in all types of God’s providence. Others tend to agree and view the book as cataloging the development of Job to become not only the most righteous among mortals but also the wisest. Therefore, the book has a relational emphasis highlighting who God is in relation to His people and His world.”

He goes on to explain that “Job was blameless and upright, caring for and interceding for his wife, and children, and helping others. However, he had problems – trouble – from the hand of God. Many speak of the suffering of Job. We need to be careful here. Too often the term suffering is undefined and is focused on the subjective – the person’s feelings which too often control his or her response. I prefer the generic term trouble. Labels have significance. Trouble must be understood as an expression of God’s providence: God’s control of His world, His way for His glory, and for the good of His people.”

Even what the enemy may use to harm us, God can turn it around and use it for our good and His glory. After all of the trials that Job faced, he never denied or turned away from God.

Because of this fact, everything that had been taken away was “restored and God brought back Job’s family, who apparently had alienated themselves from Job, the previously prosperous and caring patriarch. All of his family was forgiven, and they came and consoled, comforted, and rejoiced with him…. The faithfulness and trustworthiness of  God are bedrock pillars of truth. Circumstances and experience (God’s providence), feelings, and human understanding divorced from biblical truth don’t negate these truths. Seeking to understand God and His ways may be a blessing or a curse. However, knowing God and His ways are privileges and blessings that every believer has.”

One thing we can learn from Job’s story is that our circumstances don’t change God’s goodness. God is still good, and “God extends His care – common grace – to even His enemies.

Fallen man has nothing within to “lure” or draw the Holy Spirit to him. On the contrary, God saves in spite of the person simply because God saves. This fact is captured by Jesus in John 6:44-65 and 12:32. The term for draw indicated the supernatural, inside-out influence of the Holy Spirit who regenerates the believer. It is not an ‘against-your-will’ influence but a heart-opening, eye-opening, ear-opening activity that moves the now-believer to desire and seek Life and Light – Jesus Christ. In Christ by the Holy Spirit, the believer is something – he is more than simply God’s image-bearer. He is God’s child, bought with a price, and indwelt with and by the Holy Spirit. In that sense, he is something because something was done to him and in him. As a result, Jesus gave Job, and Peter, and all believers, the command to minister in His name. Believers are to follow suit. The magnitude and awesomeness of God’s redemptive work can’t be overemphasized. You, too, will persevere and minister because God has you!”

We can find peace and rest in this, that God is control and is with us through every trial or trouble we may face. We can have the courage to face the unknown. This is evident in the life of Daniel. Terry Thompson takes readers on a journey through Daniel’s life and the courage he had despite his circumstances in his new book, Daniel: Prophet at the Kings Command. Daniel was taken captive by the Babylonians as a teenager and had to find a way to make the best of a difficult situation as a slave in the king’s court. Daniel and his friends had to try and honor God amidst a people who did not. Terry paints this picture by writing about Daniel’s life in a story-like format.

Throughout the Bible we can see many prophesies and see them fulfilled; however, “to begin exploring prophecies, particularly as they apply to our future, we need to dig into the book of Daniel.

Daniel lived in the sixth and seventh centuries B.C. He was born around 620 B.C. and lived to about 536 B.C. During those eighty-four or so years, the Hebrew people – the Jews – suffered one of the worst times in their history. Of course, the Jews have experienced physical and spiritual affliction from their origin in Abraham to the Egyptian slavery, to the exile in Daniel’s day…” and the list goes on.

The exile of Daniel’s day began with “the Babylonians invading the southern kingdom of Judah three times between 605 B.C. and 586 B.C. and took most of the country’s Jews into exile in Babylon.

Daniel, along with many other young men, were taken to Babylon in 605 B.C., almost twenty years before the ultimate defeat of Judah and the exile of the majority of the Judahites. [He] was a teenager when he was taken by force to Babylon. He was never the typical prophet of his day but became more of a seer, or a receiver of visions about the future. God gave most of the prophets’ supernatural knowledge of future events, but none received more than Daniel. That’s why he is a special source for understanding how events of the past and today relate to what is to come.”

“Daniel’s revelations pointed to the promised Messiah, and he trusted that promise. Other prophets before and after Daniel received messages about the coming of the Lord to Earth in physical form.

In fact, as I have mentioned repeatedly, the central theme of the whole Old Testament is the coming of the Messiah, Jesus Christ. If you miss forging a personal, committed relationship with Him, you miss God’s eternal plan for your life. The decision to be a loyal follower of Christ can’t come out of an infatuation with prophecy or from respect for a person. It has to come from a personal encounter between an individual and Jesus Christ.” Daniel had such an encounter. This is what allowed him to stand up courageously in and for his faith despite what was going on around him.

As we continue to read through the Bible, we find that David also had such an encounter and faith in God. David: The Godly Heart of a Sinful Man by author Terry Hyman examines David’s heart, identifying specific character qualities that influenced his response when confronted with his sin.

Humility, honesty, and confession were common, and it was evident that David cared more about getting right with God than defending his actions. The main point that we can find displayed in David’s life is that God does not expect us to be perfect, but instead, He wants a heart that is sensitive and responsive to the ministry of God’s spirit, a contrite heart.

By examining the story of David, we find the “ultimate ‘unexpected success’ story. An obscure shepherd boy from Bethlehem rose to become king of Israel.

Unqualified, undeserving, and unsuitable are all words that man would use to describe this unlikely candidate for royalty, yet God does not reason like man. He saw something in David that made him worthy of divine attention. David’s heart was different. David had a yearning to follow God, an eagerness to have God’s blessing on his life, and a willingness to sacrifice when necessary. ‘A man after His own heart’ is how the prophet Samuel described God’s view of David.”

What high praise to receive! However, even though God chose David, that does not mean that he was perfect or without sin. What set David apart from others was his response to his sin after he made a mistake.

He repented. But before he repented, we see that “for almost a year after his sin with Bathsheba, David lived with the disgusting shame of a man haunted by what he had done. He was suffering, and his guilt was overwhelming. It made no difference what he did or where he went – he could not escape the awareness of his dreadful deeds and their horrible consequences. Though God had chosen David to lead Israel specifically because of his godly heart, he was still only human. Acknowledging David’s fleshly nature doesn’t provide an excuse for his sin; it simply states the obvious truth. David was guilty of a series of despicable sins. Lust, adultery, deceit, murder, and hypocrisy mixed with pride and arrogance to produce unbearable guilt in his tender, responsive heart. His sins were committed secretly, willingly, and without human accountability.

So deep was David’s anguish of soul that his words pulsated with urgency as he sought God’s forgiveness. He no longer cared about concealing his sin. His resolve to justify his sin was gone.

He wanted only one thing – he longed to be reconciled to his God. At that point, everything changed. David’s guilt was gone. When David’s sin was concealed, he was miserable… when David’s sin was confessed, he regained his humility. When his sin was covered (as a result of his confession), his joy returned. He was forgiven and his guilt was gone!” David was willing to repent from his sin by confessing it to Nathan when Nathan confronted him about what he had done. He humbled himself before God.

 

Although David’s life could be viewed as a ‘rags to riches’ success story, what we should take away is that his life “is not about his accomplishments, his victories, or his faithfulness. Nor is it about his godliness.

It’s about David’s dependence on his God and God’s willingness to use him in spite of his human weaknesses. If we learn anything from David’s life, it is that David’s godly heart was not the result of his character. Instead, it was a consequence of David’s awareness of his ungodly character. The essential truth is that genuine godliness is possible only when we realize that it is impossible without God’s help. David clearly understood that principle. His life reflected that understanding, and his example is a challenge to every believer.”

 

No matter what circumstances you may be facing, God is still good.

Whether you are facing a difficult situation of loss like Job, experiencing uncertainty caused by outside forces like Daniel, or struggling with past mistakes like David, remember that there is peace, courage, and forgiveness to be found through Jesus. Our circumstances never change God’s goodness. He is constant. So, as we remember those who have gone before and sacrificed for our country, let us also remember those who have gone before in the faith and the example they set for us.

 

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” – Isaiah 41:10

A Mother’s Day Gift for Mom

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“I’ve been called many things in life, but there’s no title so precious as ‘Mom’.”

Who knows which royal said this? Hint: she might just be American!

This Mother’s Day, give Mom the gift that keeps on giving – a Mother’s Day book for her bookshelf!

 

Love Romance Novels with a twist?

Why not check these out for Mother’s Day?

Amazing Grace: A love story; a missionary story – set in the plains of Africa. 

Love’s Lost Star: A bride disappears on her wedding day…

Gifted: A young, talented runner; a soul-searching coach; a determined father…

 

 

Or perhaps a novel on a completely different timeline might suit Mom’s fancy?

Sabal Palms and the Southern Squall: a hurricane brings to light the undercurrent of dark forces working against a community.

Second Chance at Happiness: A young widow, an old flame, a decision that shocks the community. 

Solomon’s Concubine: A gripping spin of life in King Solomon’s harem from the perspective of a kidnapped Jewish girl. 

 

Or a book for Mom about the Christian walk?

Revelations from the Revelation of Jesus Christ: an empowering discussion of the book of Revelation. 

Real Recovery:  the story of one woman’s journey of recovery from an eating disorder. 

For the Display of His Splendor: A Christian’s deep dive into anxieties and mental and emotional stressors that plague humans today.

 

While there is no best way to thank the mothers in our lives, we hope you will consider picking up a book for Mother’s Day, along with flowers and a nap for all the moms in your life.

May Mother’s Day 2022 bring hope, blessings, and joy to all who celebrate it.

Here’s to you, Mom!

To Love a Child…: A Letter from Our Publisher

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As families come together to celebrate Mother’s Day, we must painfully remember the children who are without a mother.

Mary Sandford explores life for children in an orphanage in her book titled Unwanted. Mary follows the life of Debbie Spencer. She is like most children her age, she has friends who she cares about, she loves to play and laugh with them, and she has no fear praying to her Heavenly Father. However, unlike most children, she lives in an orphanage…even though she is not technically an orphan. Mary Sandford shows how Debbie, and many of the other children in the orphanage, felt not having a family there with them to comfort and love them.

*****

       “I didn’t know what made me more embarrassed, wanting Daddy or being scared over a silly commercial in the first place. After I was back in the dormitory, thinking about the awful music kept me awake for hours every night. That’s when longing for Daddy was the worst. He should have been alive to protect me from scary commercials and bad dreams.”
“For weeks I’d cried myself to sleep. I’d hoped and prayed and waited. My mother never came to see me. Not once. Not even when I had the mumps. After that, I had stopped thinking of her. I’d made myself stop, and now, I never did and didn’t want to start.
Patricia [one of the members of staff at the orphanage] led me into the office and closed the door behind me. My mother stood next to Miss Ritz and her desk.
“Thisss isss my daww-ter.” My mother’s voice was loud but might not be heard over the singing. She wrapped her arms around me and clung to me like she needed me, if only to stay upright. I wanted to step aside and watch her fall. I wanted to pay her back for all the times I’d longed to be needed and wanted but never was.
I pulled away from her arms.
She gave me a bleary-eyed gaze squinting like she couldn’t see clearly. “Ssstill looksss jusss like her Daddy.”
Miss Ritz went around the desk to her chair as if my mother wasn’t there bent over and crying into her lap.”

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       “Concentrating on the chairs worked only for a moment. Everything that happened before I came to the home bombarded my thoughts.
I remembered waking up to find a cake on the table with “Happy Birthday, Debbie, 12 years old,” written in blue letters across the smooth white frosting. I’d swiped a taste off of the side and ran into Gram’s room to thank her. But Gram wasn’t there. Before I could figure out why, Uncle Lloyd came bursting in.
“What are you doing in here?” he’d asked. “My mother is gone. Her heart gave out, and it’s all Carol’s fault.” He grabbed my arm and added, “And yours.” Then he shoved me out of the room and slammed the door.
Ever since Uncle Lloyd came home from the war and he’d had to sleep on the orange velveteen davenport, he’d been mad. Mad at Gram for letting us move in when Daddy went back to Korea. Mad like he wanted Gram all to himself to take care of him and his wounded hip without my mother and me there, too.
My mother never even tried because, ever since Daddy left for Korea, all my mother did was lay on Uncle Lloyd’s davenport all day with the brown and yellow afghan spread over her. Until the day after my ninth birthday when she got the telegram.
She had started to read it out loud. “We regret to inform you…” but she stopped, and no one ever told me what else it said. No one told me why my mother ran out of the house without a coat or even shoes. No one told me where she’d been before Uncle Lloyd found her. I heard him tell Gram he’d taken her to the hospital, but I didn’t know why until Gram had tucked me into bed with tears in her eyes.”
Just before all of the chaos with her mother coming to visit her in the orphanage, Debbie’s heart was lightened by some much-needed good news.
“An outing. Folks who cared for orphans were coming to take us out? Folks who liked children and maybe wanted a child. My chest swelled up with hope. Was God answering my prayers for a new family?
No matter what I knew, telling Sharon and Noreen wasn’t a good idea at all. I wasn’t telling anyone. It was supposed to be a secret. A secret that could make my biggest wish come true. I was just sure of it.
Gram would have been proud of me thinking of someone else’s feelings like she’s always told me, a sure sign I was starting to put others first or at least for a quick second.”

*****           Mary E. Sandford

It is important to recognize the children who spend holidays in an orphanage or alone, and if we are able, to show them the love they need and deserve as shown in Mary Sandford’s book, Unwanted.
We also want to thank and show gratitude to those who have opened their doors to children and embraced them as their own with loving and outstretched arms. Thank you for sacrificing your time and energy in order to invest in a life. Thank you for being Jesus to these little ones and saying, “let them come unto me, and do not hinder them” (Matthew 19:14).

To learn more about Sandford and Unwanted, visit HERE.